I am still confused. We started dating some again...not really intensely, but we did see each other. I do believe he cares about me, but decided he needed time not with me. We still talk some, but nothing exciting. I know he dates other girls...I have also been out with people and talk online with others. I am not that into it. I hate this part of dating. The part where you don't really know each other and are trying to make sense of things.
As far as the former boyfriend...I still care for him. I suspect I always will. I could renew things with him perhaps someday. I do think there would need to be a complete commitment.
I don't know if I should just drop the idea or not. When I pray about it, I get the feeling that everything will be ok. that is about all I get. I see the validity of dropping it. I see the good reason to try to keep things up. I don't know. I know there were issues...but don't all relationships have problems? Would I be able to find something better or just something with a different set of challenges?
I don't know. I am trying to walk by faith...right now I am trying to err on the side of just dropping it all, but I am not successful at it. I will keep trying.