Monday, April 15, 2013


Boston is such a beautiful city with amazing history.  There has been tragedy and success in the past such as the Boston Massacre and the Boston Tea Party.  Sadly today a tragedy has happened.  At the finish line of the Boston Marathon there were explosions. I know people who were there just a few blocks away.  It's frightening and scary.  When I was listening to NPR, one reporter said he was not allowed on a sky walk because of an abandoned package.  This reminds me of my life, half a lifetime ago, when I lived in Israel.  Streets were closed because of possible bombs.  One time at the Jerusalem Center, some tourists were concerned because some BYU student left his backpack in the hallway for a significant period of time. We assured the tourists that there was nothing to worry about, he just wasn't thinking.  Ultimately I am thankful that the people I know are safe, and that generally we don't live in a place where this happens.  Yes I know it has happened multiple times in the United States such as The World Trade Center Bombings, Oklahoma City, Atlanta Olympics or even in Salt Lake with the Salamander Letter Scandal with Mark Hoffman.  We live in a world where there are possibilities like this. There are scary things that can happen.  Hurt happens.  What we need to remember is that we can be healed through Jesus Christ.  Our hurt, our sorrow, our fears and pain can be overcome through the atonement. Life may be hard, but it will be okay.

Saturday, April 13, 2013

Things I dislike...

I dislike pregnancy pictures that look like engagement photos.
I especially dislike it when they make a heart with their hands on the pregnant tummy.
I dislike naked baby newborn photos.  I don't want to see your baby's nakedness unless I am changing their diaper. 
I dislike when people say expecially--it is especially---no x is involved.
I dislike it when my shoulder hurts.
I dislike it when people tell me what I want, when they don't really know.
I dislike it when people are condescending to me.
I especially dislike it when I just let them be because I don't know how to respond.
I dislike it when people act like they are in high school and are clicky when they are adults.
I dislike when I don't feel like I can act like myself around people.
I dislike when I over think things.
I dislike when people take to long to respond to an email, text, phone call etc.
I dislike when I realize I have wasted the day away.
I dislike when you have a bruise and you don't know where it came from.
I dislike when I try to make everyone I am with happy and I feel like it was all for not because they don't care or are unappreciative.
I dislike when you choose a TV boyfriend(you know, your favorite characters) and they disappoint you.
I dislike when they kill off characters you like in stories--TV or books.
I dislike when I cry over a commercial, or a TV show.
I dislike when I let other's peoples choices hurt me.
I dislike how I always crave sugar.
I dislike how some clothes are always uncomfortable.

Friday, April 5, 2013


I have made a real effort to go with the flow over the last few months.  I say this because I often get discouraged, or I get anxious and I struggle with things I cannot control. Going with the flow for me is about just letting things happen as they do and to try to have a good attitude.  I don't have to know the outcome of everything.  I can let others lead and I can follow. I don't have to follow everything.  I can make choices that will work with the group of people I am with and myself.  It is about trying to listen to the spirit, and following it.

This scripture helps me.  1 Nephi 4:6
And I was led by the Spirit, not knowing beforehand the things which I should do.

With that being said.  It is easy to go with the flow when you are in a river, or a steam, but it is really hard when you live in a wadi. What is a wadi you ask? A wadi is a dry river bed.  It only sometimes has a flow with heavy rain.  I happen to live in a wadi with certain issues in my life.  I would love to understand how to go with the flow, but most of the time there is no flow. Sometimes there is a flow, but rarely. I will continue to try to go with the flow even if it is hard.