FREAK OUT

Ok so I am freaking out about some things...some have been previously mentioned. Ok lets be honest, all have been mentioned or at least alluded to.
Just a list because I don't think I have it in me to elaborate. I do however need an outlet--ie the blog.
1-my class I love them, but dang they are a hard class
2-my classes-ya did I mention I was going back to school for a masters/esl endorsement. Taking about 12 credits.
3-my calling-its good for me, but I am having a hard time keeping up with it
4-my brother's serious relationships-seriously both of them and no rain in sight for me
5-OK the issue plaguing many a single girl--will I find someone? will I be able to have kids?


My sister-in-law said something at Christmas that she knew I would get married, but if not and I still wanted kids I could adopt and the family would help me. Ya that is an upper and a downer of a conversation. And no I don't want to be a single parent in any form. I would rather just be single.

Basically it boils down to this: I have too many things to do and things are falling apart. I am only semi successful at all of them. An quite honestly semi successful really means just keeping my head above water. HELP!

Letter to me

Dear Me,
I know you are overwhelmed and and doing your best. I know you feel like things are slipping through the cracks and you are just trying to survive. You can do this! You have some skills that can help you with this. Life will be ok, even if things keep piling on. You are ok, and life will great. Something better will come along. All that baggage you carry, is ok to let go. Good luck with accomplishing all of your tasks. Its ok to let things go, but what? Figure out what works for you.
Love,
Me

A Few Good Men

So I came home today after FHE and picking up a few books at the library to find this at my door. Ya I laughed, took a picture and cleaned up. So truth is someone must have just done it before I got home, because the super glue was still wet, which means it got on my hands and dried there. Boo on that, but still funny. And in case you were wondering, yes I did make a facebook post.
Truth is I want to know who did it...maybe someday some awesome person will confess. I will admit I loved it, except the glue that dried on my fingers...

Callings

I have learned a lot about callings recently.
First, we can only do the best we can. That includes me--I have a capacity and that is what I can do. But this also includes others. I can't expect more out of people than they can do. They are doing their best so, that is what they can do.

Secondly, callings help us to become better people. We can learn a lot from them

Thirdly, callings can come from a prompting but also it can be a calling out of convenience. Both are good and can help us learn and grow and help not only ourselves but others too.

So there we go...

I Hope That Something Better Comes Along

So I have some New Years Resolutions...I am trying to be realistic about them, but also accomplish them. So here goes...

Read John Adams and at least 1 book a month for fun and learning. How To: Read before bed...

Read at least 1 verse of Book of Mormon Daily--I admit I am not that great at it, and need to be better. How To:1 verse isn't that bad so I can do it. Also I found a scripture study 40 day program--get through all of the Book of Mormon-- that some RS president created and posted on Sugar Doodle. I gave it to our Relief Society and I am using it too.

Build better Relationships with friends and family. How To: Visit or talk to someone at least once a week. Doable no?

Be more healthy. How To: Exercise a more and eat better.

To go along with the one above I want to make myself a healthy dinner at least once a week.(I like to cook, just not for one person, so I sometimes don't eat as healthy as I should...I eat too many convenience foods.) How To: Plan meals before I go grocery shopping.

Write on my blog at least once a month. Ok so I don't write a journal, at least this is showing my thoughts and such... and I should contribute more to the Van Orden blog. How To: Think about what is going on in my life and just write it down.

Be a better teacher. How To: stay more up to date on planning and grading. I have it in me, but I get behind.

Go to someplace new. How To: I am going to Boston with JHAT--ya I am siked! But I am going to try somewhere else too--stay tuned.

Do something fun/go somewhere at least once a month. (museums, Seven Peaks etc.) How To: Plan ahead, and utilize my pass of all passes.

Organize my house and declutter. How To: Put things in their place and do some organizing my life a little each day.

In addition I need to make sure I reevalutate often...

So I have had this muppets song stuck in my head for days. I think it works here as my title of this post, but also for my life. I somehow have become obsessed with my lack of dating. Boo, right! I am fine and should be fine with being single. Why should I be sad about my brothers dating and me not. I am happy, but I should more kind about it. Well that's all I want to say about it...

Premise of the clip: Miss Piggy and Kermit are on a date, shorty after meeting eachother and Miss Piggy gets a phone call and then just disappeared. Kermit is sad, obviously. He goes to the pianist Rowlf and they sing this song.